December 2011
34 posts
I’m pretty sure every time I’m at the bar I start up a conversation with someone and in the middle of it I just leave. Oops.
I could never fall for a stranger like you. I could never fall for beauty like you. You don’t understand that I never really tried when it came to any relationship. That was until I found myself in a relationship I had no intentions for. Humans really surprise me with their reactions. Maybe I’m too blunt. Maybe things seem to come easy for me. Maybe I tend to get what other people...
Dear future husband,
Please don’t buy me things. I will appreciate them but I don’t need them. All I need is for you to show me affection and to tell me how much you love me every day. I might forget one of these days.
Just like with everyone else I don’t feel like you’re trying at all.
I wish for the starry depths of your love To hold on to me And make sure I don’t fall between the creases of hate To make sure I don’t fall short of breathe As you continue kissing me Oh I lov’d you yesterday Today And now I still love I wish for continuous moments In your arms And looking into your eyes I wish to reach for each star To pull us up in the black skies And to live...
I feel confused. I just want to know everything but I’m too afraid to ask.
I hate when people perceive me as something they think I am when really they don’t know me at all. Just because I tell you a lot doesn’t mean I tell you everything. I only let few people actually get to know me.
Biggest pet peeve: waiting around for something that isn’t even going to happen.
Why the fuck do I always have to be the one waiting around?
I’m losing my mind. I’m losing my mind! I’m getting too confused too often. I keep on forgetting. Please help me.
Being at the retirement home makes me think about death a lot. I understand it but sometimes when death effects others that surround me it brings me down. It doesn’t really bring me down that I won’t see that person again either. I just hope for whoever dies now, tomorrow, or ten years from now lived a satisfying life.
An old letter I was going to give to an old love.
You know what. I’m not dumb. I read your blog entries. Not try to sound like a creep or anything though. However, I think you should say whatever you need to say to my fucking face. Don’t try to let me go because you said that you’d regret it if you did. We like each other so we should work this out and go with the flow, but not just sit there expecting things to work out...
Don’t expect me to like you now if I liked you before. You are stupid to think that I wouldn’t realize that mistake I’ve made in being interested in you by now.
You can try to be famous. You can be a millionaire. You can do amazing things. But I will never fall in love with you. I don’t know who I will fall in love with but it isn’t you.
Let every inch of my body be curiousity for your hands as you kiss my lips, my breasts, and my shoulders. Hurt me delicately and passionately. Let me be the flower and you be the rain as I scream for more to live. As I shout to the sky, I yell please don’t stop. But don’t bring the hurricane. Don’t bring the hurricane. I don’t want to go down just yet. I don’t want to...
Sometimes I just need certainty. So please just tell me everything so I don’t become confused.
“I was thinking about the first time I ever saw you,” he said, “and how after...”
– Cassandra Clare
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“It’s Only Time” by The Magnetic...
You’re not my friend anymore. This sucks but it’s life. People leave. People die. Either way someone is exiting somehow. I’m just trying to enjoy life and not deal with drama that shouldn’t even exist.
“how could a naked body under his be so indifferent, so out of reach, so distant,...”
– milan kundera (from the book of laughter and forgetting)
“When you breathe you inhale and then you exhale. But every single time you do that you’re a little different than the one before. We’re always changing and it’s important to know that there are some changes you can’t control but that there are others you can.”
Bye.
Whenever I come across old pictures of you, of them, of him, I ask myself why did I ever love you? Why did I ever love them? Why did I ever love him? Then I realized I’ve never lov’d you, them, or him. They all thought I was cold for that, so that is why they hurt me.
Time to create to live. Time to get the fuck out of this trap. Maybe I’ll be a mile away. Maybe I’ll be a thousand miles away. I just want to live. I just want to create. I want to give. I want to love. Time to find a home. Time to feel like I am home.
A blanket of waves Surrounding his love All the men have drowned except for the captain Yelling out to his love Please don’t go Please don’t go
Then the sea yells back I need her She is the only one that understands That it gets lonely out here I need her you see She doesn’t run from me She doesn’t mind my rage And the calming flow of my love for her
Why is it every time I look at a guy I think he is an idiot?
Hey there man why are you still alone? I thought you had a wife in mind Now you lay under your cold sheets Wondering where your flame is Wondering where your love is Hey there man why do you keep lying to yourself? Saying you don’t need her We all know you can’t live without her by your side But we all know she left you Cold and alone in the dark With your heart broken to pieces You...
As I stood there looking at you you spoke to me I wasn’t listening to you until you said “never.” It was all I heard Then my body couldn’t move Waves surrounding me waiting to crush me down and take me back to the Ocean It was then when I realized, I didn’t belong here I’m too much of a coward My mind yelling out to me Elizabeth go home this isn’t your...
“It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all,...”
– Marion
Maybe I should just stay cold and close to heartless. Tired of caring once again. Risk is too risky.